Left in the Desert (Edit)

Left in the desert (edit)

Love is to open sky

As loathing is to hell.

The burning of constant despair.

How easily and swiftly

One can turn into the other.

One moment we are holding hands,

The next I can feel the stream of tears

Creating a river down my skin.

Tasting the salt

As the river reaches my lips.

Your cruel words,

Slicing through me.

Tearing me into pieces

My worst fear becoming reality.

You didn’t think twice before telling all of the lies,

Promising you were only mine.

Was any of it true?

While you pressed your lips to hers

Feeling your heart beat with pure desire.

I only had you.

My heart was your toy,

Only used to play your games.

Never caring if you broke it.

You already had another.

She stood there

Watching the tears fall down my face.

Knowing exactly why

My heart was breaking.

The feeling of pain so great,

Death seemed inviting.

Her silence screamed, 

Of the last sabotage.

I was naïve to trust you

Thinking you wouldn’t do,

What I watched you do to her.

You created a place

Where I did not exist.

Telling me you loved me

As you looked for someone special.

Promises broken

Not knowing I was single,

Until I searched your name in google.

The result. A facebook I never knew about

Telling the world you were looking for

Someone to spend forever with

Sending my heart into shock.

I was never good enough.

You took everything from me,

Stripping away my friends.

Demining my dreams,

Giving the sinking feeling of worthlessness.

Isolating me so I was only left with myself in the end.

Knowing you had everything,

You left me in the desert

With out water.

Not caring if I made it out.

The never-ending sand,

Whipped around me.

Ingraining into the cuts that covered my body

Inflicting a severe stinging sensation.

I found the strength

Hidden away deep inside.

I fought the sand, pushing through,

Finding my way out.

Ready for revenge.

Here I am

Alive

With the strength

You never cared to see

I hope when you see me now

You fill with regret

Feeling the hell you tried to bring on me

While the depths of hell consume you

My fate is left to the open sky

With all of the possibilities

That I possess now

Holding my head high

I’m free to live among men

And be silly with my friends

I am free

The burden of you is gone

I am able to breathe in fresh air

Exhilarating me

© Christie Cote