Fate

This game you play

Is very dangerous

Like jumping out of a plane

Forgetting your parachute

You act innocent

Like an angel

From above

Pure and fragile

Guess again

Your act only works on a crowd

I’m not part of it

I see you for who you are

Stripping away the mask

That fools everyone else

You start a war

When I’m winning

You retreat 

Finding higher authority

Hiding behind them

Like I’m the one

Who committed treason

Harming one of my own

You didn’t expect me to fight back

When you first attacked

Sorry to disappoint you

I’m not defeated

Just like that

You may have begun this war

Trying to take an advantage over me

Despair will only fall on you

I will finish first

every time

I fight for victory

Never backing down

Think again

Before throwing punches my way

If you choose to anyways

Finish what you started 

You can’t hide

Just because things

Don’t go your way

In the end you will pay

Eventually your body

Will crash to the ground

With nothing there to stop you

But the last feeling

Of branches

Causing you every bit of pain

You inflicted on me

All because you played dangerously

Leaving behind your parachute

Fate claims you

© Christie Cote

October 26, 2010

To the mean girl(s) in my past. You know who you are! I always Persevere.

Scars

The scars that mark me

Can’t be seen

They wrap themselves around

A fragile part of me

Where I feel every one

Some start out small

Even unnoticeable

Until they grow

Not being able to ignore

The pain that is really there

It was hidden for so long

The appearance hits me hard

Taking my breath away

Somehow my heart still beats

With the scars that cover it

This heart once unmarked

Is a canvas for scars

They seem to spread

Like a burning fire

That can’t be put out

I feel each one

Like I’m touching the flame

The burning starts out subtle

Then becomes unbearable

To lose this pain

I must reconcile

The mistake I made

So long ago

I can’t hide

The pain I feel inside

It is too strong

To hold onto

Without losing hope

Happiness so far away

My heart wont be content

Until certain scars are healed

© Christie Cote

September 30,2010

Distant Memory

Tears spill down my face

I just can't get away

This pain

So real, so deep

Consumes my heart

Who do you think you are?

Winning me

The prize you sought

Then throwing me away

Like a worthless souvenir

You picked up along the way

I looked for the good

That I thought I saw

Giving you a chance

To hold my heart

Instead you crushed it

Without a care

Stripping the mask you held

Finding the cold heart

Hidden beneath

Don't have feelings

I don't care to stay

This game you play

Won't touch me

Soon you will see

How strong I can be

Soon you will be

Like a distant memory

A beautiful rose

With thorns that pierced me

The wounds heal

As if it never happened

It will be

As if you don't exist

©Christie cote

October 21, 2010

For Adair Doe

The Beauty Of The Sun

When the sun sets

It's a beauty of

All the memories

You have...

And when the world goes dark

Things seem impossible...

But don't give up

The Sun will rise once again

© Christie Cote

December 6, 2005

Looking Back

Today I find myself

Looking back

Thinking about how it should have been

Regrets are spread across the past

Trading in people who mattered

For one unforgiving mistake

Wanting to go back

Choosing the other path

Life has found its way

To where I am today

This person I have become

Is who I want to be

Both roads would have lead to here and now

Unfortunately the path I followed

Left behind the people

Who mattered most 

My heart feels the loss

I clearly still care

After all this time

I have the memories stored

And the thoughts of the ones that could have been

I can never get back

What I lost

Part of me hoping they understand

Disappointment in myself

For going against

Everything I was

Turning into a robot

Who couldn’t make choices

Or let my own voice be heard

When I went down that path

I became programmed

Stuck until I overrode it

Finding my voice again

Knowing I wasn’t the only one

Who got hurt in the process

Part of my life was taken away

A part I will never get back

My heart

Will always bare the scar

That will have the memories underneath

No matter where life takes me

I will always remember

© Christie Cote

August 4, 2010

Best Friends Forever

It’s been so long

Since that first day

Of second grade

We found each other

And stuck together

We were shy back then

We were just each other’s friend

Best friends is what we become

Deciding we would stay that way

Life was more simple then

We could carelessly play

Not thinking we were in any danger

As we got older

Our choice of friends changed

But we still held on

To our friendship

The day came that I had to move away

Leaving my best friend behind

Life wasn’t the same

No one can replace

The special bond we made

Most friends come and go

But we were best friends for life

Over the years

We have grown apart

Lost touch for long periods of time

In the end

We have always found each other again

Our friendship is stronger than most

No matter where life takes us

And how different we become

We can always count on each other

That’s what best friends do

© Christie Cote

July 25, 2010

For Amber Bessette

A Perfect Day

As you watch the sky

The beauty of it

Is in your eyes

The summer wind

Blowing in your hair

As everything is at peace

The world seems perfect

Like nothing can go wrong

All your worries

Have diminished into it beauty

The song that the birds sing

Are like no other

The life they symbolize is pure and unique

As you’re out there

You can wonder why

Life isn’t always this peaceful

You can listen with your heart

And close your eyes and dream

But in the end

You will always know

That life could never be this perfect.

© Christie Cote

January 9, 2005

Lost Friend

It has been years since we have been friends

Why do I still think of you

It still hurts to see your name

I’m the one who walked away

But I tried to come back

Wanted to make things right

Why did you say it was ok

If you were just going to turn your back on me anyways

Those words hit me hard

I still don’t understand

You find me in my dreams

But when I awake your not there

I never stopped caring about you

I hear songs and think about you

I can even hear your voice singing along

All I have left is my memories

I can’t forget you

The friendship we had

Was special

I regret every day

Losing the connection we had

How did we go from being so close

To not knowing each other at all

I want to talk to you to hear your voice

And laugh with you about the past

Watching you play piano singing from your heart

I was your number one fan

But first I was your best friend

As you get closer to your dream

Don’t forget where you came from

Remember your friends that stood beside you

In the very beginning

© Christie Cote

May 4, 2010

Hiding Who I Am

Why do you ask me to hide myself

Taking away who I am inside

Telling me it is not ok

To reflect myself

In things I do and say

Who are you to say

That these things are not ok

You chip away at me

Slowly making me into

The robot you want me to be

Individuality is just a dream

I’m living in a world

Where it is not invited

I must talk a certain way

And act following your standards

Or I will not be accepted

Losing myself along the way

So I can walk among you

How will I stand out

If you make me like everyone else

Soon you will not be able

To tell me apart from anyone else

I will just blend in

Lost in the sea of sameness

© Christie Cote

February 9, 2010

New Sight

I was blind for so long

When I finally opened my eyes

And could see clearly

For the first time

I saw what was right in front of me

Waiting for so long

Hoping I was not too late

Not wanting to lose something so great

Somehow no one saw

What I was seeing

Making it hard to believe

That I wasn’t in a dream

And I am really this lucky

For the first time

I had something worthwhile

Something that I wanted more than anything

© Christie Cote

November 29, 2009